Thursday, May 26, 2005

F#@K Anxiety

So I caught some flack for that parents comment in my last post. I guess I'm just showing some of my insecurities about maturing, becoming responsible, and giving in to societal, cultural and biological pressures. I mean, come on, I'm a 26 year old boy, we don't think about things like babies, buying homes, careers, life insurance. (actually, I think about all that sh!t) But perhaps I should be thinking in that direction... getting any younger I am not. And as I type this I am realizing that 26 is not that young.
Again...this blog has served it's purpose of discovering peoples' passions while discovering my weaknesses. I am not as strong as I would like to be, and i know better than most, that I have been coasting for quite some time. Perhaps I am too content to leave my fate in the hands of some higher power. It's like that joke says..."I sent you a boat, a helicopter, and a plane...what more did you want". Sometimes opportunity doesn't knock...but it is just on the other side of the door. And most days, I'm too busy complaining that my wrist hurts to turn the knob.


meshell412 said...

Is it babies, a home, a career, and life insurance that you want? Gotta have goals! Women like goals. :)

I understand how you feel however often I think many of us give in too easy to the "I want an alternative lifestyle". Which is fine and dandy however to me it seems that sometimes that direction is fueled by fear. The fear of responsibility that babies, a home, a career, and life insurance can require.

I like to shoot high...aim for the stars. Test myself to the big challenges of life. Life happens whether we like it or not. It's how we deal with it that makes us the people we are.

Rise above the anxiety my friend. You are you (not the anxiety) and we love you. Accept yourself, create and realize your dreams!

Ok now I'm just spouting. I applaud your blog honesty. It's inspiring. :)

"It's such a beautiful day to always feel this way."

Shellz :)

JColeThomas said...

Shell, you rock! I appreciate you're candid-ness too. i thought kinda like you disappeared for a while. guess the work thing was keeping you busy. glad to know you're still out there. rock on mama!